Almost everyday, people judge me. This is my conversation on im.

Dumb-ass: A lot of girls in LA are fake, are you a good person?

Me:I think I’m good person but kinda stupid question to ask. Who would say I’m        fake if you are fake.

Dumb-ass:That’s true. Oh wait, I see your nude pic,I didn’t know that. I have to    tell you, You will never make it in Hollywood.

 Me: Um.. Sharon Stone, Drew Barrymore did it.

Dumb-ass:yea, after they were famous, not like you. Noone will ever take you       seriously.

Me: Thanks! (block user)   

I can’t change the way people perceive me. I’m not a slut, I never have done porn, I’m trying 100% to be what I want to be. I was blessed by the god to get an idea in my head to entertain people. I came here study my ass off to go to College in MA. I was homesick. I used to watch Saturday nite live at my dorm and I realized that laughter can save the world. I left Japan to make money here, I mean my fam is pretty well off to send me to all private school but I wanted to make it my own  to take care of mother financially. I do now. 

My message to you all is don’t get discouraged by what people say. If you feel good about what you do, You are good. So easy for the others to judge you , but don’t let them. Because 5′3 104 pounds girl here is fighting too. with you.

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From your past comment on my blog, I want to pick this topic. There is no day goes by hearing racial comment living here. I just vallet park my car and the guy said thank you in Chinese.At least he was thankful. I could be offending people at thai restaurant asking for fortune cookies.(some does have it though!)I had a friend who made fun of my accent saying “herro.” If you really want to make fun of Japanese people,  we don’t have R sounds in Japanese alphabet. Japanese alphabet is consist of  46 katakana, 46 hiragana and 3000 kanji. I was at this dinner party, old man asked me and my friend if there was a massage room. We both were dressed very conservative. That’s the kind of shit we go through being asian. Ofcourse I’m a smart ass and always have something to say. This known  football player kept on saying “lucy, lucy lu. I love you!” so I told him ” Thank you Micahel Jackson.” Some people are ignorant and you can’t take them seriously. Do you go through what I go through by being you? Black, hispanic, gay, whatever. I try not bias people. Because I am mazzo ball soup drinking, kool-aid mixing, line dancing, Lowriding Jap.

 I came back from dinner with p. So full. I can hibernate now. All I gotta do is tohide more acorn under my pillow and sleep.  We had Yakiniku. I like meat with fat. In U.S, non fat is over rated. Fat is the best part.Nonfat advertising on products is just the way to subliminally affect on our minds to feel healthier. This blog is nonfat BTW. Enriched in protein. If you live in Tokyo, all the meat comes with fat(smaller portion though..) To me, eating American meat is like eating coffe crumb cake without crumbs. What is this world without crumbs? Darkness. We had

• Beef sashimiKalbi(shio)
• kuppa soup
• Kobe beef meat btwn ribs
• red mango……….Gochisousamadeshita.  

• Seeing myself on TV(Yay!)
• Working with Japanese production
•  Green Tea soy latte(I’m gay.)
• Hand lotion that smells like lemon pie from bliss spa( I’m trying to get more female reader here by mentioning cosmetics and sarah Jessica parker.That’s basically all they need to hear.)
• Baby vegi.(baby onions, baby carrots, You feel like barbarians eating them cus they are so tiny.)
• Babywipes. If you have ocd, to go out without babywipes is like wrestling without jockstraps.
•  Reading your comment, I’m so lucky to have you all. You never judge my opinions.
• To enjoy everything and put 100 percent to it. If I had a bad day, I will enjoy my blue feeling by listening Under the bridge by Red hot chill peppers.( That song is so depressing, when I’m done listing to it, I feel like I overdosed, got arrested, went to rehab and come out and dedicate my life as yogi wearing white kimono.)  If I had a good day, I will pamper the hell out of myself. I will get foot massage, flowers, cook me fancy dinner with candles as if my ass is going to get laid.
• my privacy. 
• freedom
• myself
• money
• Jesus
• shopping
• banana soymilk shake
• natto

o…I was half aslep writing this to you, as you can tell, it was getting shallow. It’s time for me to go to bed now. Night my beautiful children.

I had introverted personality. I grow up not seeing my father much so I hang with only females. I used to cry when I saw mailman. I remember my mom made me go to kids camp so I will come out from my shell. I was into playing the duct flute by myself. It got stolen many times. Boys were mean. They would ring my door bell and run. I fucking hated my school.  I used to daydream what if someone made this medicine and everyone will fall in love with me. (It’s called Roofies now.) I had my first boyfriend in 5th grade. He looked like monkey. We broke up because he had dirty nail. Young love…Didn’t we used to like someone as a kid for simplest reason? 

Anyone has i phone? Do you like it? I have blackberry but everytime I want to use,I have to type my password. Open face phone has own will. (especially in my purse.)He  called  Japan, long distance in my non-free minuite in past.  I don’t like phone. I hate text msg too. That’s what girls with chihuahua do. I found my phone in my fridge next to melonbread.  I’m old fashion girl. I contact by smoke signals. I’m going out to eat now, bye for now..chow now…

I know Forest Whitaker was great in it, I know that was based on true story of Ugandan dictator Amin but not my favorite movie. THANKS NETFLIX for referring this movie because I liked Blood Diamond. This movie is good, but after taste is horrible. I couldn’t look at bacon or any cut meat. I lost my appetite and end up eating cookies and candies. This is definitely not the movie to watch by yourself with headphone in the closet with your laptop thinking that you will have Dolby theatre. At 10 am. I saw soy-sauce on red leather chair, freaked out thinking it’s blood. I don’t think it was even original. It was low sodium ones. I felt sissy. People used to call me bulldog in a skirt.  I can’t sleep now.. waaa P.S.I love, love love all your comments. But Do not use my blog to promote your own shit. ex) I want to go out with Aiko. No. Aiko decided to focus on herself for now. I think some posts and bulletins are funny.I like people here. Have you notice on myspace? I get the post like ” Aiko call me, I lost your number.” I’m like” I don’t know you, how could I? You live in Israel. “ 

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